Emotional yet intellectual

I have come to my senses. It's one thing to care about someone you love and another to have them play with your emotions. This past week I deleted T's number. No more random meet-ups that lead down a dead end. As I stated in one of my comm. theory journals:

"Love is not suppose to hurt. If i cannot seem to sit him down and talk about how I feel without him brushing it off, then so be. I have to admit my losses and move on. By moving forward I will create a front and back stage. Within I'll be hurt and my miss him, but I cannot let these feelings get the best of me. Truth is, if you know what you're worth: Don't settle for less!"

The dating scene isn't for me. I just want male friends, without benefits...okay maybe some, but not a lot. I want someone willing to take baby steps and catches me when I'm ready to pounce on them. Someone that is actually worth the wait.

As for finals, I just finished my first one not too long ago. 6 questions, short-answer format. We had a lot of information on the study guide not mentioned in class. How "odd" of her (note the sarcasm). I have a feeling this week will fly by, and I love it!

I've been thinking, go back to work for my brother at the design firm (+ gain more experience) or move-up to carside at work (more money for the holidays and next semester). Part of me really wants to quit Applebee's. It's become too routine, yea it, too, gives me experience in my field but I need motivation to stay there. Same thing every weekend: clock in, work the same routine and clock out. I'm not Bill Murray in Groundhog Day. This stuff can do harm to a person's health.

Any words of wisdom?

'til next time,

-T. Love