God has blessed me...

I stated this before in a previous entry, but I find that tonight it is proven. This year has been amazing. I will miss it when December 31st comes, but I welcome the new year with open arms.

I read an E-mail that made my entire day.

Earlier this week I received a text from my 7th grade teacher telling me she forwarded my contact information to someone doing PR at the hospital close to my home. I figured I would hear from them sometime this week. I thought, "Monday, once they get to the office"... that didn't happen. "Too caught up, maybe Tuesday?" After Tuesday I was bombarded with work and planning for this weekend's group discussions that I forgot about hearing from them.
Today as I was driving home from work, I noticed my phone blinking (you know how it is, fellow Blackberry owners: it blinks, you respond ^_^). I noticed it was an E-mail. I read the first paragraph, smiled. Once I read the second, I cried. My Passaic Facebook Fan Page was brought to his attention by an active member. I was thrilled.

In between the tears of joy, I smiled, repeatedly. The cars at the stop light probably thought I was insane or maybe on something.---They were right, I was high on life... and continue to be.

There I stood observing...

I watched him in a room. I saw him while looking into the small window of a room. The walls were patted. His body just laid there. He looked content as he slept on the mattress. I could tell because he had a slight grin. He must've been dreaming.

I looked to my hand and there was a key. The man had a key, too, in his right hand. I wondered if it was the same key I held in mine. I continued to watch him smile.

Slowly he started to wake up. The smile faded; he got up and went to the corner. I started to feel bad and opened the door. Once inside, he looked up at me, embraced me close. I asked if he held the key to the door. He nodded. I asked why he didn't let himself out. He sighed, "The world outside can be a lot like this one." He was partially right. However, I was determined to show him a better world than he knew... I was going to show him everything he was missing.

I was going to give him the world many promised and show him how he's worth that and more.

From a friend to a friend, I cannot stand to see you hurt ...anymore.

Much has happened.

Life continues to be amazing. It's true what they say, You learn something new daily.
I got an internship on campus. I'm helping out the sociology department with a domestic violence campaign. It's great because I'm working with three fellow pr majors that I love ^_^.
As for love I have learned to take it as it comes. I was getting to know someone (JO) and it turned out to be a bad idea. Oh well, I learned and noticed how much patience I have now. (GO ME!) Honestly, I don't mind if a person works long hours throughout the week and we barely see each other, it's the little things that get to me. As stated in a previous blog or Facebook status (can't remember which I posted this in) there are 24 hours in a day, if you didn't get to something it's because you didn't want to. A simple "Goodmorning" or "goodnight" text every other day wouldn't hurt. I'm not needy, I just like to hear from the person I'm talking to once in a while. One thing I've come to value, honesty. I give it, why can't someone else return the favor? I don't know if he was/is talking to someone else, I just wish he would say it. A friend told me I shouldn't be so honest with the people I date. I disagree. What if I get into a serious relationship with them? Then what do I do? Do I tell them I was lying about not seeing someone else? How about the other(s)? Do I tell them "I got serious with someone" when they didn't know I was dating someone else? Or do I just ignore their phone calls/ texts and expect them to get the picture? I would feel terrible. I wouldn't be able to do any of the above. Being honest is the only way to avoid future problems. I know women in relationships unhappy but because they WANT someone choose to settle. No, thank you. I rather be alone then "in a relationship" and unhappy.

This year I've learned something about relationships. A friend told me about "not having titles" and I was against the idea at first. When I started to hear his reasons I started to agree. However, it went in one ear and out the other. Before dating JO I was dating someone because I enjoyed his company. He was "in a relationship" and it didn't bother me. What bothered me was not being the only person he was seeing (I wasn't second, I was third). The part that got to me was how it wasn't anything special, no matter how great he made me feel. Then I started to look into it, and I thought how he's just being honest with me. It's my decision whether or not to stick around. I don't have to if I don't feel comfortable. With time I got used to it, started seeing others as well, but they weren't honest and made me miss him. We're still friends today, and I'm thankful for having someone like him in my life. If I ever need to vent, he's there. ^_^
While dating JO I adapted the mentality of No Titles, Just Love. Something I learned from my friend and Mr. Taken. When people have titles, society has an idea of how people in a relationship/ married/ single should act.
In a relationship: Must be dedicated, spend as much time as possible with them (depending on the type of relationship i.e. person is needy)
Married: Must be in love and dedicated no matter what (even if the person argues daily)
Single: Should go out as much as possible, hook-up with the world and not have a care in the world.

With titles you're performing. It isn't who you are. I believe a title shouldn't define what two people have. Now, I am not knocking down marriage. Never that! Marriage is beautiful, for those who can truly love each other and work out issues through discussions rather than arguments
(That's another issue: people who argue for the sake of getting their point across. --I believe in discussions. Approach your partner about something when the time is right and with the best tone. NOT YELLING! No one likes yelling).

Too many people in unsatisfied relationships stay because they feel the other person will be upset or hurt themselves. There should be an understanding that if things don't work out (given that both parties have tried everything) there shouldn't be a guilt. It should be as if a weight has been lifted from both of your shoulders. Breathe, nothing lasts forever. Take it from the buddhists. "Nothing is permanent."

To be single is to appreciate what you have to offer to the world. And technically, everyone is single. Who you choose to spend your time with must accept you for who you are and all the great things you can bring into a relationship.
As for sense of humor: I can't think of anything but

-Love always,

Tima :)

I found this article..

Thought I should share it! ^_^Article


Sorry this was not much of an update, but something is well...something

Life is GRAND

"See the innocence of a child? They do not see the 'evil' in others, only the good.
Learning to trust someone is a lot like baby steps."

I know, I sound like a hippie from time to time with my "Life is beautiful" statements I've posted here and on Facebook (sorry!) I find that life can be so much and yet "beautiful" is the best fit.

Some will damn their lives and say "fml", etc. but I see that as pointless. I've grown so much this year: physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Most people bid the year farewell on December 31st and recall memories of the previous years. I don't know what I'll do this year. I think it'll be the first time I cry about it.

It feels like I had a guardian angel looking over me; watching my every move. Whatever or whoever it was brought so much happiness into my life. I've received love from my family, friends and strangers that have become friends. ^_^ I've heard stories about friends/family who hurt each other and I cannot help but feel terrible. I've always believed in "Trust, until you are given a reason not to" (I think I've stated it in a previous post). There's truth in these words. You cannot go around hating someone for what others have done. I will admit that I, like most people in society, have trust issues. In addition, throughout this year I have seen and done things that have made me grow colder. I have my moments where I want to give something my all, but when I think about the "What If's" and "How Abouts," I close up. It might just be human nature. Who knows. I do know one thing, everyone deserves a shot. I'm slowly drilling this into my head and taking it into consideration. They say, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"--I agree! I aim to become better, stronger... never colder.

"Everything you see now is temporary, everything you take from what you see is permanent."

Smile ,
T. Love

Something from my Myspace

I've decided to delete my Myspace page, but first I would like to save my album here. It's called Randomness; an album I'd place random photos I'd find from the Internet (two are taken by me) and added captions that came to mind.

ENJOY!

a rose is a rose....but what is it without its thorns?

when things appear out of reach:

hold on tight!

it is only an illusion

See yourself, be yourself

Swings, how I never get bored of you

where my heart is: public relations

cross the bridges that lead to your success

I can't believe how much this was my life...
a daily routine
a mask to say
"I'm beautiful"
when yet, I have always been Bella

money leads to physical perfection

even in the city:
my eyes are drawn to yours alone

Sometimes we [rely] only on perception,
but what about touch?

Given the chance, BLEED the romance

Invade me, colors

photos; memories

a random kiss
in the middle of nowhere is always a plus

the mind [sometimes]
goes through a "down-pour" of thoughts

Be random

Ducky! Why didn't Andy pick you?! sigh*

Juan Dolio, Rep. Dom.-
"Let's run from shoreline to shoreline"-Stafford

(Serendipity) Somethings are just meant to be

Close your eyes
& feel the world around you

famous & happy, but only on-screen.
for she lived a sad life, she never felt good enough.

Allow yourself to feel
the love before it gets "washed up"

beauty lies in people, places and things

find the comfort in each other's embrace

oh how cartoons inspired us,
as children, to use our imagination

the greatest love is the type that is shared

warm hugs on gloomy days are the best!

A father is a woman's first viewpoint of a man.

Oceans before us &
we'll continue to be side-by-side, hand-in-hand.

a heart that sets is a heart that lies

be as the clouds; mold yourself & keep it moving

the petals t o u c h my heart, tenderly

be free, together!

this will always be one of my favorites!

videogames were always a favorite past time

And now, time to delete my Myspace.
Cheers,
T.Love

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HERE'S the UPDATE!

I'll do this in sections again:

Life: Amazing as usual. I cannot complain, everything is where it needs to be. One thing though, I truly need to get myself on this internship thing. That is the only part of my life I am slacking in. Funny enough, I ran into my 7th grade teacher and she told me she'd talk to a friend we both know that is working at a local hospital and does PR work for them (JACKPOT).
Other than that, all is well in this area.

Love: I'm still talking to the same guy. J is officially out of my life, but still on my mind. T continues to come and go, but I told him I'd appreciate it if he didn't contact me again.
The new guy's a sweetheart and an ass when need be. He's in training for two weeks right now. It's cute, he sends me morning texts wishing me a great day and says he misses me. We'll see where things go. Love in general is great. I have so much love surrounding me: from family to friends and friends to strangers (those I meet at the gym). Oh yea, I didn't mention, I joined the gym in late June. ^_^

Sense of Humor: Last night was a family friend's gathering by my house. There were a bunch of children. Two of the opposite sex were walking around holding hands and everything the boy wanted she wanted too (I was serving them food and drinks and everything he said he wanted she would say: I want what Josh's getting!). Then I asked her who was he she said, "That's my brother."She had a little attitude too, I wonder what her mother is like :x The funny part was when she was upset. One of the ladies had yelled at her because she wanted to go to the neighbor's pool. She stood there, arms crossed, didn't want to hold her brother's hand anymore or anything. She had the mean face on. I tried getting her to tell me what happened. Josh told me what had happened, of course he gave the simple, "Someone yelled at her" response. It made me wonder, seeing that she had a little attitude she appeared to be spoiled by her parents and maybe wanted something she could not have.
I crouched down to her level and tried to get her to tell me what happened, what was wrong and how she was feeling. Then Josh told me the truth about the whole wanting to get into the pool thing. I tried to get her to talk and it didn't work. Once I offered to tickle her Josh said YEA! And I tickled her and she smiled. I told her, "Is that what it was, you wanted me to grab you?" I picked her up and she let out the cutest smile. I fell in love. She was still a little upset with the whole pool situation so I walked her over to the neighbors who were at the pool playing around. Asked the neighbors if I could just show her something. Told her she didn't have a bathing suit. She said she did at the house. *kids are always ready! Then I remembered she wanted to hear the guy sing, and I said "How will you hear the guy sing AND have CAKE if you're in the pool?" She started to think. We went back to the party and she continued to smile. She spoke to the performer saying she remembered him from last time. I became a little tired of holding her so I said, "I think Josh wants to play with you." She looked at him and let out, "You do?" I winked at Josh, he said "Yea." She said, "Okay," and jumped down. ^_^ Success!

I think I want to adopt kids one day. I feel like there's so much love to give a child that is already on this earth. <3