I know I have stated this in a previous blog or said it many times to friends, but I'm changing for the better. No more "sexual" innuendos, or scandalous pictures. It's not me, I don't fit that personality so why am I doing it? Most would say it's for attention, could be, I don't even know why I do half the things I do. As for drinking, I've learned to monitor it. I've never been an excessive drinker in the first place because drinking isn't always "fun"---like most would like to consider it. I have my head in the books, as usual, but I am focusing on my social life as well. Not just meeting random people; I'm talking about networking. I want to see what the world has to offer me and vice versa. I'm going for my high school attitude, a little more edgy though. I'll mix in my positive attitude, and S H A Z Z A M !
As for the love life, I would say it's nonexistent because I'm not talking to anyone or taking the "steps" to get to know them. I've made male friends which I keep in touch with throughout the week but nothing else. (I'm going on to exactly 6 weeks tomorrow! I am proud of my progress.) I like where things are going, no commitments or getting used to talking to someone every night. To top it off, I don't want to hurt someone because I cannot give them my full attention. I'm still in love with J, YES I KNOW IT HAS BEEN A YEAR (on Jan. 26th). My heart is still with him, I used to compare J to JV all the time. Now, I compare every guy to J because he knew how and did everything to make me smile (like that Fabolous song says, "You know my style, I'd do anything to make you smile") It used to make me giggle when J said that in the beginning, he had the sexy look on his face and everything. I didn't know it then, but I know now that everything he said was put into action (as far as emotions, and loving me). We all know about T, the semi-J guy. They were alike in certain aspects not all (and I am repeating my first two or three posts here).
Enough about love, let's continue to discuss life, shall we? This morning it started snowing like crazy. Call me weird, but I see snow as something beautiful (or in the terms I like to use, "sexy"). When it falls onto a path that has been crossed several times I cannot help but smile when I am the first to walk through the now snow-covered sidewalk/stairs. It's funny because millions have passed it, but for the moment, you're the first to walk through. This reminds me of life. We often tend to look at a path and think negatively about where it leads. For instance, when you're coming out of a serious relationship that has left you questioning people's motives, you tend to be cautious. The path to meeting someone new, starting over, and getting into another serious relationship seems "shaky" but why not? You did it the first time, right? You've taken this path before, a little different, but now it has snow. Will you stop and say, "It's the same shit just different look?" or will you proceed with caution? These are things people need to look into when it comes to dating. We often tell people, "I can't, I've been hurt before." The question is, WHO ON THIS PLANET HAS NOT BEEN HURT?" I want to see someone raise their hand to that one. People get hurt no matter what; whether it be a family member, friend, love interest or spouse, SOMEONE HAS/WILL HURT YOU! Stop being a baby and give into your emotions.
How's that for a "long-awaited" update?
^_^
CHEERS!
-T. Love
Well hello there. ; )
Here is where I'll update you about my life. I promise to keep it interesting; for every boring entry, I'll do my best to post at least two interesting ones^_^ And now, I'd like to welcome you to my world. Please, allow yourself to get comfortable, my thoughts may intrigue you.
-Tima Love
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Good morning, beautiful people!
Since my last post a few things have happened. Spring semester started yesterday and I must say I am in love with my schedule; Classes on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. As for work, I only work weekdays (except for Thursdays) which is a major change for me. I have not had a weekend to myself in so long. The last few weeks have been pretty sad; Haiti has gone through two earthquakes (another occurred this morning). Right now 75,000 were killed during the incident.
There's a part of me that is beginning to believe in the Mayan calendar and the world ending in 2012. Many natural disasters have taken place in the last couple of years. I really don't know what to think anymore.
On a lighter note, my nephew is getting sexier by the minute. Ever since I started working at my brother's design firm I have seen the little man several times. I think it's crazy how someone you met not too long ago could be embedded in your heart the MOMENT you met them. Ethan's a piece of heaven; let's pray he stays this way!
I have come to notice that this year has been filled with surprises. I find myself a lot wiser than last year. What I least expected IS NOW happening. The law of attraction states to visualize yourself doing whatever it is you want to do and you'll be there sooner than you think. As I like to say, "See yourself, be yourself."
My life has been on track since J and I parted ways. I cannot complain, I have never been happier. Yes, I have my moments when I miss him. The thing is, I have come to far on my own to move backwards. Besides, J has a girlfriend now and is doing his thing on his side of the world. If we could be friends one day, I'd love that. If not, then so be. Life is a beautiful thing, never let it go to waste. Hurt lasts as long as YOU let it last; remember that and you'll go far.
HUGS!
-T. Love
Monday, January 11, 2010
The Art of Letting go...
Is letting go truly an art? I would say so. From the break up, I've learned a lot. I've been able to grow spiritually, mentally and emotionally. If J would ask me to return, I wouldn't. There's a part of him that will always be in my heart but that piece isn't enough to make me go back. I probably stated this before, but I'd love a friendship between us. It won't happen though. I've tried and with him it's like pulling teeth.
So here we go, an update on the dating scene: I am currently not dating anyone on a serious level. Just making friends, getting to know different people. I'm still stuck on how come I don't show any emotions. I feel like a guy. I'm pretty sure there's a reason why my heart has shut itself from falling. I kind of like it this way. Hopefully it doesn't ruin any potential serious relationships.
Honestly, I don't have much type out here. Maybe some time this week something interesting will happen and I'll put it up.
Until then, Keep your heads high, you're BEAUTIFUL in your own special way!
-T. Love
So here we go, an update on the dating scene: I am currently not dating anyone on a serious level. Just making friends, getting to know different people. I'm still stuck on how come I don't show any emotions. I feel like a guy. I'm pretty sure there's a reason why my heart has shut itself from falling. I kind of like it this way. Hopefully it doesn't ruin any potential serious relationships.
Honestly, I don't have much type out here. Maybe some time this week something interesting will happen and I'll put it up.
Until then, Keep your heads high, you're BEAUTIFUL in your own special way!
-T. Love
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Life is AMAZING
Good afternoon, beautiful people!
Aren't you lucky, another update! ^_^ This week has been moving quite slowly, however the weather has been great! Lord, are you preparing us for a crazy snow storm? Speaking of which, I have come down to the conclusion that God has a great sense of humor somewhat of a sick one but great indeed. I have been in situations where I have to stop myself and think: "Lord you did this for some reason" and figure out why. I believe that everything, no matter what it is, happens for a reason. I know I have discussed this in the previous blog but I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Since my break up with J, I have had the chance to get to know people I never would have with him by my side. There's this elderly man at church who always makes me smile whenever I see him. He's independent, doesn't have anyone waiting for him at home (I know this because my mom was his nurse back at Hamilton Plaza) and my heart went out to him even before I knew his background. I recall a time telling J how I wish I could converse with him, he seems like a man of great spirit (something along the lines) and J said, and I quote, "Yea, but what makes you think he wants to talk to you." That stuck to me, and I never approached him because of it. One morning after mass, my mother went up to talk to him and I used this as an opportunity. We spoke about God and how he never lets you down as long as you're with him. To this day, I always stop to check up on him, to ask how everything is going for him. He always says, "I'm on my feet. That's always a good sign." It makes me smile because people take things for granted when others find it a blessing <3.
For me, I find scenery a blessing. Most will hate that it's snowing or that it is raining but I smile. I love the simplicity in it; how the wind blows and the trees and leaves sway. Or how objects sometimes create shadows that look nothing like what made them. I remember a time walking down 3rd Ward park with J. He had the cutest smile. We never went walking for the heck of it, but that afternoon we did, he thanked me because it reminded him of when he was back at Stony Brook. He loved the tranquility, and he enjoyed the scenery as well. We sat on the bench and spoke about God knows what (it was always random with us), and when I got too far ahead with my thoughts, he'd bring me back to reality. I guess we balanced each other out. I won't lie, I miss these moments, (when we got along). We had our arguments that felt like it was over for good. We were too stubborn to let go; he'd come back the next day with "I'm sorry." I always accepted his apologies, so did he whenever it was my turn to apologize.
From what I experienced with J, I've been able to grow. Grow in such a way that no one could ever bring me to where I was with J. Every relationship, I've found, is different. I like to treat them differently. A chance to start over with someone is simply another shot at love. If you look at it this way, you'll be as open as you were before you got hurt. Love as though yesterday never existed and tomorrow isn't promised!
-T. Love
Aren't you lucky, another update! ^_^ This week has been moving quite slowly, however the weather has been great! Lord, are you preparing us for a crazy snow storm? Speaking of which, I have come down to the conclusion that God has a great sense of humor somewhat of a sick one but great indeed. I have been in situations where I have to stop myself and think: "Lord you did this for some reason" and figure out why. I believe that everything, no matter what it is, happens for a reason. I know I have discussed this in the previous blog but I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Since my break up with J, I have had the chance to get to know people I never would have with him by my side. There's this elderly man at church who always makes me smile whenever I see him. He's independent, doesn't have anyone waiting for him at home (I know this because my mom was his nurse back at Hamilton Plaza) and my heart went out to him even before I knew his background. I recall a time telling J how I wish I could converse with him, he seems like a man of great spirit (something along the lines) and J said, and I quote, "Yea, but what makes you think he wants to talk to you." That stuck to me, and I never approached him because of it. One morning after mass, my mother went up to talk to him and I used this as an opportunity. We spoke about God and how he never lets you down as long as you're with him. To this day, I always stop to check up on him, to ask how everything is going for him. He always says, "I'm on my feet. That's always a good sign." It makes me smile because people take things for granted when others find it a blessing <3.
For me, I find scenery a blessing. Most will hate that it's snowing or that it is raining but I smile. I love the simplicity in it; how the wind blows and the trees and leaves sway. Or how objects sometimes create shadows that look nothing like what made them. I remember a time walking down 3rd Ward park with J. He had the cutest smile. We never went walking for the heck of it, but that afternoon we did, he thanked me because it reminded him of when he was back at Stony Brook. He loved the tranquility, and he enjoyed the scenery as well. We sat on the bench and spoke about God knows what (it was always random with us), and when I got too far ahead with my thoughts, he'd bring me back to reality. I guess we balanced each other out. I won't lie, I miss these moments, (when we got along). We had our arguments that felt like it was over for good. We were too stubborn to let go; he'd come back the next day with "I'm sorry." I always accepted his apologies, so did he whenever it was my turn to apologize.
From what I experienced with J, I've been able to grow. Grow in such a way that no one could ever bring me to where I was with J. Every relationship, I've found, is different. I like to treat them differently. A chance to start over with someone is simply another shot at love. If you look at it this way, you'll be as open as you were before you got hurt. Love as though yesterday never existed and tomorrow isn't promised!
-T. Love
Monday, January 4, 2010
It's a beautiful afternoon!
Well hello followers, I am very sorry I have not updated you. A lot has happened. For starters, my father was rushed to the hospital after going for a check-up with his doctor. He was operated the 23rd and was given to O.K. to go home New Year's Eve. Other than my father's operation, there was a death. My cousin Lexie's friend, David, committed suicide right after returning from Dominican Republic. I feel terrible for his father.
This brings me to an important topic: How people change when things go "wrong." I put quotations on the word wrong because everything that happens has a reason. For example, my father's operation needed to happen so he realizes that his health is no joke. As for David's death, I did not know much about the kid but I did know that when I first met him he seemed out of it. We never know a person's story until they open up or it's too late. He'd been hospitalized for depression. His father and my cousin were the only two who were with him day in and day out. After his death, friends and family members mourned. The question is, where were they when he needed them the most? Many say this could have been prevented, and I agree. Some say he would have done it regardless, I doubt it. We all put people aside when they need us the most. I too am guilty of this, I cannot lie. We get tired of drilling things into other's heads and getting nowhere. Shoot, I know people who are constantly telling me things for my own good, and I never listen.
Besides the madness stated above, great things have occurred since my last update. I quit Applebee's because they were being unfair to customers and employees alike and have gone back to working at my brother's design firm (gain experience in my field ^_^ --it's a win-win). My nephew started eating cereal and baby food and is still a "Chubbawubba" as his mother likes to call him. What else, hmmm... Oh yes, let's discuss the love life. Well, since my last update who was it, Cuban? He and I are still friends, we've talked about hanging out sometime this week. I met a Brazilian, he's a sweetheart, but we're only friends as well. T is officially out of my life (I can hear friends clapping away..lmao), I contacted J for New Year's and that was pointless. All I said was "Happy New Year" and he flipped. The immaturity is just part of his personality. JD is back with his ex and I am so proud of him! ^_^ B has gone missing since he went to Florida, MB and I are still friends, talk here and there. JV is still the guy I compare every other man to...and I wouldn't have it any other way. Let's see who else, oh there's an old friend ,DJ, who I've been seeing here and there, nothing serious.
People often ask, "So who's/who are the man/men in your life?" I just respond with, there aren't any. Truth is, there may be people I am getting to know, but I just see them as friends. I've been in a serious relationship and as for now all I want to do is just enjoy myself. Not as in whore around, but just network, get to know different people. Converse with strangers about life and not have someone beside me saying: "Babe, why are you doing this...or that?!" Or have someone care about me so much he feels the need to see me every 5seconds. I don't like to feel tied down. I can be dedicated, but I'm young. I've had the guy who I swore I was going to marry and now, all I want is the guy who is a friend and if that leads to something then so be, until then, I just need to focus on my path. Mr. Right Now is great, for 2-seconds and nothing more. Mr. Right will meet me down the path of success. <3
How's that for a an update!
-T. Love
This brings me to an important topic: How people change when things go "wrong." I put quotations on the word wrong because everything that happens has a reason. For example, my father's operation needed to happen so he realizes that his health is no joke. As for David's death, I did not know much about the kid but I did know that when I first met him he seemed out of it. We never know a person's story until they open up or it's too late. He'd been hospitalized for depression. His father and my cousin were the only two who were with him day in and day out. After his death, friends and family members mourned. The question is, where were they when he needed them the most? Many say this could have been prevented, and I agree. Some say he would have done it regardless, I doubt it. We all put people aside when they need us the most. I too am guilty of this, I cannot lie. We get tired of drilling things into other's heads and getting nowhere. Shoot, I know people who are constantly telling me things for my own good, and I never listen.
Besides the madness stated above, great things have occurred since my last update. I quit Applebee's because they were being unfair to customers and employees alike and have gone back to working at my brother's design firm (gain experience in my field ^_^ --it's a win-win). My nephew started eating cereal and baby food and is still a "Chubbawubba" as his mother likes to call him. What else, hmmm... Oh yes, let's discuss the love life. Well, since my last update who was it, Cuban? He and I are still friends, we've talked about hanging out sometime this week. I met a Brazilian, he's a sweetheart, but we're only friends as well. T is officially out of my life (I can hear friends clapping away..lmao), I contacted J for New Year's and that was pointless. All I said was "Happy New Year" and he flipped. The immaturity is just part of his personality. JD is back with his ex and I am so proud of him! ^_^ B has gone missing since he went to Florida, MB and I are still friends, talk here and there. JV is still the guy I compare every other man to...and I wouldn't have it any other way. Let's see who else, oh there's an old friend ,DJ, who I've been seeing here and there, nothing serious.
People often ask, "So who's/who are the man/men in your life?" I just respond with, there aren't any. Truth is, there may be people I am getting to know, but I just see them as friends. I've been in a serious relationship and as for now all I want to do is just enjoy myself. Not as in whore around, but just network, get to know different people. Converse with strangers about life and not have someone beside me saying: "Babe, why are you doing this...or that?!" Or have someone care about me so much he feels the need to see me every 5seconds. I don't like to feel tied down. I can be dedicated, but I'm young. I've had the guy who I swore I was going to marry and now, all I want is the guy who is a friend and if that leads to something then so be, until then, I just need to focus on my path. Mr. Right Now is great, for 2-seconds and nothing more. Mr. Right will meet me down the path of success. <3
How's that for a an update!
-T. Love
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