Last night I listened to Az Yet's "Last Night" in a way I had never heard the words before. They touched my heart, making tears escape my tired eyes. I could not sleep, I swore music would help. It just made me realize why I could not sleep. I love T in ways I told myself not to. You know the connection you feel with someone without the use of words, the whole kissing and everything falls to place? That's what this is (on my end). I found myself asking questions that I have to answer myself. He wants nothing, and I want everything...this isn't what love is supposed to be. Studies have shown that love triggers the same chemicals that are found in obsessive compulsive disorders. Maybe I'm just obsessed with the thought of wanting him. I could have anyone, someone worth it, and yet I put myself through this for him. I deserve so much, I know this...but par of me just wants to see this all work out in the end.
People say that I need to find someone else to focus on and then I'll get over him. Like I told my bestfriend, I could fuck the whole world and still want him. It's one thing to kiss anyone, hold them, start over, but to sit through it all for someone, that's deep. May seem cliche, but I want to forget how I feel and just remember what I deserve. This is tough...
Brian McKnight is just singing the right words on this long morning, "One last cry, before I leave it all behind.."
"...Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do...
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
'Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on....."
-T. Love
Well hello there. ; )
Here is where I'll update you about my life. I promise to keep it interesting; for every boring entry, I'll do my best to post at least two interesting ones^_^ And now, I'd like to welcome you to my world. Please, allow yourself to get comfortable, my thoughts may intrigue you.
-Tima Love
Oh wow T. Love
ReplyDeletethis is something
it is hard when you love someone and for some reason they don't feel the same
you can't explain why you feel what you do, but that's the person you fall "head over heels" for
you feel that warm feeling inside when you think of him
and yet you wonder why it is for him at times
<3 u
-B.